utter exhaustion

have you ever had one of those weeks where at the end of it, you were so exhausted you wanted to sit in a dark corner and zone out to the world? you're too exhausted to sleep, even though you crave it? coming from me, the zombie king- this means that i really need the sleep- but it won't come? i feel like this week has drained me of almost every thing i've ever brought to business school (granted- this probably isn't saying much coming from me). 

wow- the 4 day marathon of tests and library sit-ins has ended. strangely, i went for a run today and felt the most energized i've been in ages. and for some god awful reason, i miss the library. will my spot still be there next week if i need to go to study? 

see- i start thinking delirious things when i get tired.

no time to think. more stuff to do. like find a job. 

why?

why are people so adamant that the government can handle our problems? let's see- in the last week i've heard people excited about the prospect of healthcare reform and how everyone will finally be able to afford it in this country if only the republicans would shut up and sit down and let the democrats steamroll their way to the top.  why on god's green earth would people assume the government can handle healthcare? we're talking about the same government that can't manage veteran's healthcare, and we should expect nothing less than the best for this, correct? i'm not sure i follow people's logic here. the government can't run a budget to save its life, maintains high deficits, has trouble implementing policies- but somehow they're magically going to get healthcare right? i just don't see it.

i didn't get a chance to watch the overseer's speech last night- but from what i've read in the recaps- it's another attempt at making things seem much worse than they really are so that people are so scared they believe government is the only solution. since when has more government ever helped anyone? 

okay- back to operations and finance studying. 2 more to go and i get a break. it can't come soon enough. 

ugh

after one hell of an exam today, i'm back at it studying for tomorrow's nightmare. it's amazing how i can spend so much time studying and then studying some more, but can still manage to feel like i don't know anything when it comes around to the actual exam.  i was, for lack of a better word, disheartened in my performance today- until i learned that everyone i talked to felt the same way or worse. i'm not sure what that says about us or the test. but in any event- it's still a letdown to know that something you thought you understood was further from your grasp than you truly realized.

on a lighter note- i may attend the washington dc tea party on friday as a reward to myself for finishing exams. if you don't know what i'm talking- i suggest you look it up. i think it might be good to go out and find more people who don't fall for the government's crap- hook, line, and sinker.  

sigh. back to the books.

a break

i can't wait until thursday at 1500. by then, my last final of this module will be complete and i will be able to take a long needed break.  this has been, by far, the worst of the modules and quite possibly the hardest for me in terms of staying focused and on track. the crappy job market, coupled with the classes i took combined to make mountains of work i never expected and frustration i never wanted. but- the end is in sight and i'm pressing towards finishing strong. unless of course my professors decide they haven't tortured us enough and make these finals ridiculously difficult (which would not surprise me in the least).

needless to say- this week's postings may or may not occur. and if they do, they may be filled with nonsensical drivel as i attempt to move from one exam to the next in rapid succession. there's something seemingly impossible about taking an operations exam and then having less than 24 hours turnover to study for, and then take, a finance exam. there's no way one can wait until ops is finished to study for finance, but then if you study for finance ahead of time you feel like you're neglecting ops. or another class. 

can thursday come quickly, but not too quickly? i need a time machine. 

seriously?

okay- so someone told me that they thought the banks were predatory lenders. interesting. if they were predatory lenders, why won't they lend me any more money for school? 

here's where their logic falls apart. their story goes like this. "my mortgage went up $200 dollars a month and now i can't afford it. well, that has to be because of predatory lending.  they didn't fully explain to me what was going on when i signed my mortgage"

my response-- you signed a contract. it's not the responsibility of the bank or the mortgage lender to explain it to you. i know i'm being radical with this because people will complain that mortgage loans are hard to understand and full of technical jargon. WRONG! there is this wonderful thing called a dictionary in which you can look up the meanings of words. mortgage lenders provide you with a lending schedule showing you how much you'll have to pay per month. for instance- i know that for the next 15 years, i will have to pay close to $2000 per month on student loans (assuming current interest rates and my current lending budget. also- this is assuming i don't consolidate and refi to 30 years or something)...

my point is this. people who had no business buying homes in the first place were doing so and not reading the terms of their loans. and now they're upset that they are getting foreclosed on. i'm not seeing why i should feel sorry for them or why we should be forced (to the tune of $275B) to pay these things off for people.  

hey- maybe in three years i'll get money to pay off my loans. i'll just claim that sallie mae didn't explain it to me well enough. never mind the fact that as a grad student i should know how to read.

i don't know if you read michelle malkin or not...but there's a piece on her website today about ACORN breaking into a foreclosed house and claiming "it's our house now."  this could get ugly. i may break into the apple store for a new computer and claim "it's my computer now."

sigh. what is this country coming to? 

realization

do you remember that in the last 4 or 5 years that all we ever heard about (besides "bush lied kids died"), was the enormous deficit that the bush administration was running up? and how that was horrible for our country? i do. every time i tried to discuss politics with people, their responses were "we're in an immoral war for oil" or "well look at how much spending bush has done" along with the "bush is always on vacation" jab. 

wake up america- why was it so wrong for the bush administration to run up a deficit, but now i hear no whining, complaining, or bitching from the media about the one we've just been granted by the "o-team"? does anyone see the illogic in this besides me? i'm sure the press will say "it had to be done, we were in a recession, blah blah blah." a deficit is a deficit. if you're going to hound one guy for increasing it- why not the next? 

let's think of it in bar tab terms- since as a grad student i find a lot of students think the bar is the best place to be, maybe they'll get this analogy. let's assume i have a gracious bartender who knows me and likes me and is willing to give me a loan every now and then so i can have a favorite brew. now, let's say my jealous friend decries this as wrong and immoral (i'm not sure why, because as my friends know- if they're out drinking with me, they're going to get a drink out of it anyway). now let's assume that i move away and a new guy takes my spot BUT still has my tab essentially. shouldn't that same jealous friend decry the fact that the new guy is running up a tab? of course he should. then why isn't he? well, it's because the new guy is just that- the new guy. let's give him the benefit of the doubt!  (okay- cue the fact that people didn't realize my last sentence was sarcasm in 3...2...1...now). 

maybe that didn't make perfect sense...but it does to me and that's all that matters. 

my new birth

so after growing tired of posting status updates on facebook and the like, i have decided to start a blog dedicated to the hypocrisy i've noticed ever since "our savior" took office.

bear with me as i take a whole 1.5 seconds to gather everything i'm upset about...

right then, i'm back. 

i do not understand why in god's name people believe this massive spending project is going to do anything but further enslave us to the government. didn't we pass a bailout in the fall? what happened with all that money? 

i am not comfortable with the fact that people falsely inflated their earnings in order to buy mcmansions and now they're getting a bailout for it. what about the men and women of this country who have worked their tails off everyday and never get a handout? what about those of us who have to take responsibility for our actions? we're just supposed to say "well, it was the mortgage lenders and the banks that created this problem?" i don't think so america! let's remember without people to sell this crap to, the banks and mortgage lenders would have disappeared long ago. don't get on your soapbox and tell me it's their fault. that's akin to me running up a huge bill at best buy and then asking for a bailout because "the electronics guy was preying on me" 

really gm and chrysler? you're asking for more money? again? did you remember to car pool to dc this time? there's a reason no one buys your products.

the free market needs to be just that. free. i do believe president reagan said it best when he proclaimed the scariest words in the english language to be "i'm from the government and i'm here to help." 

here's another one that gets me all wound up- the press compares this recession to the great depression without any facts to back it up. and what's worse is that it gets repeated time and time again by people who only "heard it on tv so it must be true."  

and finally, for now at least, there's this little thing i like to call hypocrisy that the left jut doesn't realize they are guilty of. on more than one occasion i've heard reference to the amount of time bush took vacations. can anyone tell me where hussein has been for the last two weekends of his coronation? on a retreat and on a personal "love-fest" with his wife to chicago, where he proceeded to act like a celebutante. if everything was so urgent as he requested, why wasn't he here to see it through?